People who think Depression is a choice, take a second to think. How would it feel to wake up and not have the emotional strength to face people. To think that time is just passing by with no real reason. To feel so alone even when you are sitting in a room full of people. To have to put on a face and hide your feelings because no one would care anyway. To lose friends because you can't find the strength to go out and you can't physically be 'happy'. To cry yourself to sleep, hoping you wouldn't wake up then when you do you are exhausted from the night before, and it all starts again. You try to hide your feelings hoping no one would notice and if you slip up all you get called is attention seeking and 'emo'. Now tell me why someone would choose that? Depression is an illness, not a choice.
Well, It’s a start of another work day for me. I wish I could just quit work and start traveling. I think I might have to start traveling on my own. All of my family and friends seem to never want to go. I mean they say they do but they never commit to plans or dates. It might be good for me to go alone and be more independent. I’m definitely going to get my passport soon anyways. So I might as well plan to go somewhere I’ve never been before out of the US.
I gave up on Facebook and deactivated my account. I feel like every second of the day I’m checking it on my phone or computer. Everything I think or experience I constantly feel the need to update. It’s consuming so I gave myself some time back to enjoy life.